i need love and murder

saw "walk the line" over the weekend. and it was really good. i cried a little bit at the beginning and the end, but not all the way through like i thought i would. there was one scene that i was crying a lot, though, after he kicked the drugs and was lying in his bed talking to june, saying that it should have been him that died, not his brother. his brother was so good, and johnny felt he just always messed up. ahhhhh, i LOVE johnny cash, deeply. i always get a little misty whenever i see anything on tv ever since he died. but in general i did okay in the Crying Hysterically At Movies Department. joaquin phoenix did an outstanding job, as did reese witherspoon. i was a bit worried about reese before i saw it, but she was great. maybe not as great as she was in "election," but great nonetheless. the movie also featured an abundance of so many amazing sweaters!! all the girls were wearing these awesome little cardigans with beads and flowers and embroidery, i wanted to own every one of them!! lots of bitchin' cats-eye glasses as well.

the day johnny died was one of the saddest days in recent history for me; it was almost like losing a family member. i grew up listening to him. (i even went to see the movie with my parents--something i haven't done in a million years...i seriously think the last movie i saw in the theater with both of them was "pee-wee's big adventure." ha!)

there was one point in my life, in my 20's, that i listened to nothing but johnny cash. nothing. anyway, i cried the whole day he died. i also cried when june died, in part because i saw johnny at the funeral and he just looked like he was dead already. i knew he couldn't/wouldn't live long without her.

i feel like i have to get the rest of my johnny tattoos. with the "love god murder" box set, it came with a sheet of temporary tattoos of the symbols. i got the first one right after he died, in the middle of my lower back. i just took the temporary tattoo sheet into the tattoo place, so it is exactly like it should be. it was totally on a whim when i got the tattoo; i was hanging out with 2 friends, had many beers, and right then and there in the restaurant i was like, "I HAVE TO GET A TATTOO FOR JOHNNY CASH, RIGHT NOW!!" luckily they were sympathetic to my mission and we got up from the table, i stopped home for the tattoo sheet, and there i was getting a tattoo within the hour.

i got "god" first, for various reasons. one being that i could only afford to get one at the time, and it was the one in the middle. but also because he just died, and it seemed fitting. i've wanted to complete the set ever since, so it looks just like the cover of the box set. but i am poor, and i think that my boyfriend doesn't much like the idea of me being riddled with tattoos. although i only have one other one. it's not so bad, honey!!! and lower back tattoos on chicks are supposed to be sexy, no? at least it's not a damn butterfly or some cartoon character...it's friggin' JOHNNY CASH!!!